A heartfelt thanks to all of you

It's hard for me to put into words what life is like right now. I feel like I'm living in some upside down universe where "normal" is this state of unknown and uncertainty and worry and fear; I don't remember the last time I felt otherwise.

I've had many people tell me I'm "brave" and "strong." I feel neither. I think I can speak for all of us when I say we have no choice. All we can do is put one foot in front of the other and move forward; not because we're brave or strong but because we are. Trust me, there have been many occasions were we think "we just can't do this anymore." But then the next minute comes along and here we are. And really what choice is there?

I know I can speak for us all when I say one of the ways we move forward is because of the tremendous support we've felt from all of you. The messages here on the guest book; the emails you've sent to me or Shawn or Dave; the phone calls; the meals you've brought us; the kind words and thoughts; the prayers said in synagogues and churches all around the country... when we reach the very bottom this is what picks us up; this is what keeps us going.

Even as I write this, I can feel you reading it, all of you. Those of you we've know forever and those who we've never even met, who are reading this because someone you know has told you about Shawn. In looking at the stats for this blog, I see that you come from Illinois, West Virginia, Virginia, Indiana, Californa, New York, New Jersey, North Carolina, New Mexico, Pennsylvania, Canada, the United Kingdom, and France. There's a real sense of power in knowing that you are all out there.

And I don't really know what I can say other than I am SO grateful for your support and concern. You may think it's not much but really it is everything. And I just want to say thank you.